Agony...

my close friend's dad died yesterday...
Tamila and ben's pappa... he is no more (on this earth)
there is agony and brokenness... but God is still in control.. and Jesus is enough.
its just hard to see all of this with the loss that is impossible to bear without Christ. pray for the Morgun family

Dying to Self

How can i expect to die to myself daily if i can't even get myself to wake up before 9am? i wonder how this semester will be like... i guess the best way to start is no more late nights. and realizing i can't do this on my own.
two days till my day of birth and i can't even understand that i'm not 19 anymore. 21... thats a new page. Father, sanctify me to find my joy only in You.

this has been a rejuvinating winter break. starting the new semester will be impossible to fathom without your help, Father. thank you for carrying me this far...