boy oh boy what a day.. what a weekend...
so much singing, so much choir, so many choir buddies. concert choir is a huge commitment, and yet so is family. and i think they are beginning to be very similar things.
God really lavished blessings on me today, so many times and i just dont understand how he loves us so. "if grace were an ocean, we are all sinking" ...

i was at the tulare outlet, and literally everyone that passed by me were so courteious and genuine and smiled and said hi to me, like they were acquaintances or something.

a friend in our choir decided to not talk at all today for a school assighment. it proved to be torture. she was emotional at the end because i presume that she realized that she was missing out on so many conversations that could have happened on what seemed like it would be the best opportunity for it.

many more things happened today. but too tired to write. snoozing off..
only God, Only God...is our source, and supply.

a thirst for Christ should be shared

its wierd, i feel like writing a post, but once i get to the empty square, nothing comes up. i get this when i come across an amazing melody on guitar that is just itching for some words that glorify God, but there is no rhyme or reason to my mind and the words dont really come. at least for now.
but its ok. God's words are always better, so i guess that means Go meditate on his words instead of trying to make up "your" own..

in the midst of all the school craziness, there is still this huge desire to run away and meet with God. ahhhh!!!!!!!! doesn't it feel like the world is suffocating the focus? school, politics, daily demands... God, please slow it down... so i can see you in all of it!.... its draining. i miss the simplicity in lithuania and ukraine, where i could just enjoy God's wonders in a new light.

i guess this is a "homesick for europe" moment. but i am so happy that things are the way they are and God is Holy and perfect and is sanctifying me through this all.





May the Power of the blood of Jesus Christ be upon you and bring you to assurance of Salvation!

You Go Girl Retreat

this was a beautiful weekend... everything i needed to sooth my soul and help me focus..






i just want to thank everyone who was praying for everything that took place this weekend.

The Painted Veil...

do you think its possible that God uses things like movies that are not christian, to give a humbling message?
after watching this movie.. didn't like it at all at first.. its not the type of movie i would have liked in the past when i used spend a lot of time watching them.
but there is a message that was shown to me... something i was struggling with.. like the woman who got married to this Doctor, we sometimes as "believers" have affairs on Christ.. we forsake him... and we dont realize it.. but Christ died for us, when we were still sinners...
of course the video is not trying to send a christian message.. but something became quite visible to me.. love grows.. not just love for one another, but love for Christ. we know these things.. but i need reminders at just how much i neglect to respond to the love.... the love..... the love of Christ. after watching this movie i was compelled to spend time with God.. because i realized many times i put people before God. i get more excited to spend time with people than with my Creator.. weren't we created to have a relationship with our Creator?
... maybe instead of closing our minds to things that we tend to think, don't Glorify God, what would happen if in some cases we allowed God to show us how to see him in the details... i always miss the details...
Praise God for the moments of awareness he blesses us with...

Im back in America!

so im finally home! i came back early friday morning at 4 am :)
the 8th of August i think.
wow things are going quickly and went by too quickly. but what a blessing. Lithuania... changed my life and shaped my future, ukraine edified and blessed me everyday(God did the blessing)... and now im at home and dealing with jet lag and every night since ive been home ive gone to bed no later than 4 am lol... but God has been using my jetlag to get me bonding with family and friends... im just overwhelmed. all i can do is reflect on how much i see Him working in my life...
what a great weekend i just had... what a great new family-this team that went with me to Ukraine... how wonderful are my new friends from lithuania and all over the world, thanks to the study abroad experience. im speechless.
Father let me find my Joy and peace ONLY in you.. amoungst all the distractions and even in the things i consider blessings.. let me only see you in them and be humbled so that i may not boast... for Your name's sake. i hope i see these new friends again that have become so much a part of my life. so that we may praise You together for our Joy that you give.
Let it Be...

so im in ukraine!

wow...
i've been here since around may 16th... first Novovolynsk, then Kiev, then Zaparoziye, and now Feodosia...
so amazing here. i can't write for long cuz i have almost no internet access. but what a beautiful place.. and what a journey God is taking me through.. im finally reunited with many of the fresnoians! and making many new friends... Thank you sooo much Lord...
Glory be to You!

so an update..

well.. since Josh told me to update i will.
i dont have pictures available at the moment.. but i just want to say..
i loved this semester!!
finals are done, there was graduation, now everyone is leaving.. while i stay a bit longer and have to watch them go.
its been a rough couple of days. im missing everyone.. and i have to pack everything and move out by tomorrow morning...
.. when i get a chance i will post up pics and more details about the semester.. but for now im a bit in a somber mood.. nostalgic even.. but in 2 days im off to the Vilnius mission trip.. and then.. UKRAINE!
so.. please keep me in your prayers. i know ive got to have a lot more faith and strength to get through the transitions .. i just have to keep the focus..
your one and only,
Amz